| frustrated sadness. |
i don't feel so good.
i ache mentally. i am so scared about things that i cannot even write in my diary. i need help. if my life was in a court of law, i'd plead insanity and get off, innocent. but real life is a prison cell and i really am going to have to re-study 3 AS levels and study 4 more this year. i can't even afford to buy the books we're studying, which will get me into deep trouble with the english depo. how the fuck am i going to pay for all the exams i'm resitting? oh, and by the way, did i mention you only get one shot at a resit? no pressure, then? yeah sure i shoulda passed it the first time round. i just suck and i was on prozac then. yes that IS my excuse and i AM sticking to it, bite me. i'm going to be fasting and taking diet pills and drinking water and studying 7 different AS levels with no friends. i want to die. i need help from anyone. but no one can help me. i want to die. |
