| tarnished blades. |
emailed a query about S.I. and whether the army will let me in or not with that - been talking to people who are actually *in* the army, and they say i won't get in with it.
i wasn't cutting because i tried to give up for love. i tried to get a job in the army for 6 weeks so i'd have enough money from that to buy the ticket i need for love. the army thing got blown up out of proportion and i got dumped because of it. the army won't let me in because i *used* to cut. so now... i cut. because there is no love. there is nothing. there's nothing anymore. sometimes i feel like i could conquer the world. sometimes i feel i've got it all. but now i know i've truly got nothing.  *sigh*. it's the only thing that stays with me. whilst i have this, i don't have nothing. i have less. |
