i finished the job at helmsley and started at kfc last weekend. it's an amazing job, the people are really lovely and the pay is to go up to £4.50ph as soon as i hit 18 on november. 5th. sigh. i don't really care about that crap, i'm just saying it.

i don't think i've cut for an entire month.

i'm not binging. i'm controlling what i eat. i am walking a lot.

everything's okay.

okay, i am binging, but i'm restricting too.

it's pissing me off, because i bought loads of really nice 'thinner' clothes and i can't fit into them yet. hanging around with the naturally tiny fee is killing me, too.

i have absolutely total control over my life, and i might as well have none.

help me.

2002-10-24 - 9:56 p.m.
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