| human shortcomings [or lack thereof]. |
really scary day today.
vicki had a fit in critical thinking - really scary, i thought she was going to die. yeah i know, how stupid am i. i've had a few fits but i got to see how it looks on the outside and it's fucking scary as hell, i really thought she was going to die, all i could do was sit there with my mouth open like "oh my god she's going to die she's going to die she's going to die she's going to die". really not useful. fee was cool though. she just stood up, held vicki's head so she didn't hurt herself and talked to her and got people to go get help. it sucks cos although its great that i've got a best friend i can totally rely on - when i moved out fee basically fed me and made sure i was okay all the time, lol, er, god i'm such a pain in the arse - i hadn't realised how completely stupid i am. er. well. i mean. i act like i'm this big tall elephant person who is all independent and shit but the minute i move out or am away from my friends i'm a liquidated wibble wobble pile of crap on the floor. i had to stay at fee's house numerous times when i moved out cos i was too depressed to get out of bed on a morning and maintaining any kind of attendance rate at college meant i had to go stay with people like emma and alex and fee who actually cared if i was alive the next morning or not - unlike my Evil Landlady. i'm totally dependent. maybe i could take a first aid course? god my friends could die in my presence and i'd wake up from being stupid n drool all over myself and go "oh. dear. oops. oh well." everyone was like "well done fee" i was like "wow. well done fee. i'm glad your my friend, hehe." yeah well to be honest if i was her i'd be thinking "fuck off and learn some common sense you retard". *stabs self* fucking hell. sorry about that. --------- other news... ST has moved into our house, little bastard!!! hehehe!!! god sake! mum and dad have gone out and becky's all tv monopolising and her feet smell... urrrrrrrrrgh. i feel really... young today. maybe i'm not just immature. maybe i'm stuck like this for life. *stabs self* weezer - island in the sun. |
